The moment Blair first opened up on RuPaul’s Drag Race | Photo: RPDR
RuPaul’s Drag Race star Blair St. Clair has spoken honestly and powerfully about her experience of being raped in a new interview.
The S10 contestant discussed the assault for the first time on RPDR earlier this year.
‘I had never talked to another human being about that in my entire life,’ explains Blair of the ‘word vomit’ moment she had to speak out about the assault on the RPDR stage.
She also told Mic the assault was ‘something I didn’t want to believe.’
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Explaining why she stayed silent until then, she added: ‘It’s fearful admitting to the world, to yourself even, which is the most scary thing, that someone hurt you, that you’ve been hurt, that you’re open and vulnerable.’
She furthermore added: ‘I felt less of a man, of a gay man. And I felt there was something wrong with me for such a long time. Because I didn’t feel the need to be an oversexualized gay man, in an oversexualized community we live in. I felt very odd, out of place and resentful towards people that were.’
She described talking about the incident on Drag Race as ‘cathartic’, but admitted it wasn’t until months after the show finished filming that she began processing what happened.
‘I made a mistake’
The star also spoke about her DUI and arrest last year in the interview. ‘Going through all of this with TMZ [who broke the story] was really frustrating,’ said Blair. ‘In March 2017 I was arrested for drinking and driving and even after that I didn’t think I had a problem with drinking. I made a mistake.’
She later added: ‘Now I’m older I recognize how many faults I had in that. In putting other people’s lives in jeopardy, taking a risk with my own life, and breaking the law.’
She also said: ‘It was really hard seeing people repost that stuff […] and commenting on it, seeing my mugshot go viral. That was a mistake I made a long time ago that I was dealing with legally, morally and ethically.’
Blair, who is now sober, was eliminated in the sixth episode of the current series of Drag Race.
If you have been affected by Blair’s story, click here for a list of helplines.
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